Getting here was a winding path that started with Emi’s pregnancy. My second pregnancy was really rough on me. I felt sick 90% of the time and I started having issues with my thyroid, which is really common. I had no symptoms but was monitored monthly by an endocrinologist. After delivery, we waited three months to see if things improved. They did not. It seemed unlikely that it would be resolved on its own as pregnancy hormones are usually normal by this point.
Multiple studies later, my doctor strongly felt like I had cancer in my thyroid. 3 doctors later, same answer. I was broken. My baby was 6 months and I felt like I wasn’t going to see her grow. I gave up on myself. I was losing so much hair that it clogged the drain daily! I was a mess until I decided to change my mind set.
If I was to be alive for a short period of time, I was going to live it up. I started getting ready, looked for solutions for my hair loss, gave all my love and time to my girls. We started homeschooling Eli and I opened a boutique to keep me distracted and focused on other goals. I didn’t feel completely satisfied with staying home and I love having something to challenge me.
A year and a half later, I decided to close the boutique. I would cut and sew matching mommy, daddy, pet and little clothing while Emi slept but I didn’t understand the small shop world. I struggled with the shop and after much frustration and loss, I realized I wasn’t enjoying it. During that time, I opened an IG account for the girls. I wanted to share their looks and daily life as a way to document their days with me if I were to be gone. I snapped pictures and just had fun but I wrote novels for captions and didn’t feel like it was the correct platform to express myself or communicate with the community.
I choose to blog instead of keeping a personal journal because there is always someone who tells me my pictures or story made them smile. Many times I felt alone in my journey and if we have the ability to help a single person with this blog, it will be worth it.
My main focus is to keep our blog fun so we can create and smile together but I will be honest; life isn’t a perfect picture and our days, just like yours, include ups and downs.
